I am experiencing both, excitement and fear for what God is doing in, through and around me.
It’s an awesome sense, knowing that God has a plan. My problem, if I can pinpoint just one, would be the simple fact that I wrestle with being in control. My tendencies lead me to pursue the things that I have control over, or at the very least, have some sort of leverage. Ya – not the case as of late. And that’s okay, I guess.
It’s an interesting place – a place that I have not made myself too familiar with over the years – a place that I am learning to appreciate and embrace. That doesn’t make it any easier; just my reality.
That said, I am seeking God’s will for my life, my family, my finances, my ministry, my future. Or is it His life, His family, His finances, His ministry and His future?
Perspective changes everything.
~Andrew
8 Comments
November 5, 2009 at 12:13 am
Same here. Letting go of what I don’t control is the hardest thing to do, and submitting to God’s Will when I don’t see a clear, vivid end and a path to get there is even more difficult. I’m an amateur on what to do here, but whenever I get a better understanding of who God is, it always seems to make me trust in Him more. Plan what you can, leave the rest to the Son of Man.
November 5, 2009 at 3:44 am
Great to see your writing and putting it out there. Control…something I struggle with daily, ironically, even in my need to finish reading through the Bible in a year! But the great thing is that if your’re seeking and asking and truly willing to change, God can transform even the biggest control freaks like me! Love you and miss you brother. Say hi to your beautiful family. I would love to meet the newest Anderson some day.
November 5, 2009 at 5:28 am
Love to read your writing…. I too struggle daily with control over my finances, family, life, my future…. it is definitely hard to let it go and let God handle it. But since it is His, I guess we must do it!!!
Love ya and miss you and the family!!! Come visit once I am back on the east coast!
November 5, 2009 at 12:45 pm
Sometimes you can have this “ultimate plan” laid out for your life and God decides to “rock it.” Shake things up a little to let you know He’s in control. What might seem frustrating when it’s happening turns out to be an even better “ultimate plan” that you would have never dreamed possible.
November 5, 2009 at 12:47 pm
Sometimes you have this “ultimate plan” laid out for your life and God decides to “rock it.” Shake things up. At the time it can be very misleading and frustrating, but when the dust settles down, your “ultimate plan” gets even better.
November 5, 2009 at 3:19 pm
you are so right on the money… i think every person has the same problem right on down to our children. its a power struggle, either with a person or with ourselves. but we must obey after all that is what he tells us over and over. “if you love me, obey me…if you love me… obey my commands. ” thank you Andrew for bring this into the light. i miss you so much and stacy is just awesome, give and get a hug from one another for me.
November 5, 2009 at 6:22 pm
We all struggle with wanting to be in control. I’ve always been a person who takes charge and “fixes” problems. Like you, I find it difficult to “let go and let God,” but over the last year, I’ve realized that I can find rest in releasing my desire to control to God. Believe me, it wasn’t easy at first, but as I continued to purposely relinquished the things I couldn’t control, I have found peace.
November 9, 2009 at 6:11 am
What I can say is that it is quite a process; one that has continued to challenge me beyond measure. I feel so apathetic at times, always wanting to move and make things happen.
A. Anderson